A sensitive isue(so don't read if you get offended easily:)

Hello friends! Sorry I didn’t blog last night. I was busy so I didn’t think to. So anyway what I was going to tell you was my mom is going to make me take an ACT test. It’s a college entrance test.L I was pretty mad. I mean I am just fourteen. I shouldn’t have to worry about that kind of thing for a few years. My test is on Saturday. Anyway I should be able to go to A Series of Unfortunate Events on Friday to make up for it.J I am excited. I got on the Internet and looked up the movies and it looked way good. Plus my best friends both said it’s good. My sister has read the books (as have I) and she said I would be a good Carmalita Spats. I’m not so sure that I like that.
Well, I was just thinking about the controversy concerning growing up. I was talking to my friend and I said play once during our conversation and she said it was behind the times to say play. So if I said I was playing instead of hanging out on my blog I would be considered immature. But really, what’s the difference? Are we so excited to throw away our childhood we think of it as immature to say play in connection to what we are and what we do? And make-up. I know this girl in my church and she wears more make -up than our leaders, way more. I don’t even use it. I don’t think its bad by any means but what’s the point? My friend uses it for church and it looks nice. But this other girl seems to think that the more make-up you use, and the more you talk about boys the more grown up you are. It makes me think about a little four year old trying on her mothers wedding dress. It’s too big for her. The more she stresses it the bigger the wedding dress. I might be wrong but I wear baggy T-shirts, Levi’s and tennis shoes. I have some friends that are boys, mostly my cousins, but I don’t get all goo goo ga ga about them. The thing is I seem to have more fun than this girl does. She is always matchmaking her friends. She has had four ‘boyfriends" since she moved here two years ago. It seems to me that she should be the extreme but she isn’t. If anything she is the imitator of the big people who really (to me) are experts of making them selves look stupid. It’s great to look nice, so if make-up helps you get to that goal, I love it. But if you wear it in extreme all you do is say to the world "I’m all for the show." You look hollow like you need powder to make you feel good about yourselves. And I know that isn’t the message you’re trying to get across but that is the message I get. So for at least for now I will have boys who are friends instead of boyfriends, I will play instead of hang out, look nice instead of overdressed, have fun instead of looking cool and if the day ever comes when that changes, I will be mad at myself, I will lose my sisters respect and most of all I will lose myself somewhere between the make-up, fancy clothes and boys. So I choose to keep myself even if people think I am immature.